Right now, I'm what my husband would call "In my head". I've got thoughts bouncing around and driving me nuts. Mostly negative stuff that I probably shouldn't be thinking, but that's just how my mind works sometimes. As much as I try to push away the negative thoughts, they seem to have a mind of their own and not only push back, but multiply! I feel insecure and unloved despite a great evening with my husband. He's sleeping now and I'm in bed next to him wishing he'd hold me and magically make me believe things are ok and that I don't have to worry.